Tag: andrey starostin

Validation Vagabonding

Total read time: 7 Minutes How are you complicit in creating the conditions you say you don’t want? Standing on the side of the street with an empty cupWon’t get you the change you preach of However, Cowboys a Stetson does make Impoverished by self esteemFueled by deafened courageBarracked behind the clicks and taps of

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Success is Nostalgia

Total Read Time: 7 Minutes I went for my first ”morning” run today (7am). It was my 5th run of 2020, and I’m getting faster at unlocking hidden tools to feeling good. The morning air was cold, like a strawberry you grab out of the fridge. Only the burst shock chill went through my neck

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Self Sabotage is a Cop Out

Total Read Time: 6 Minutes It can feel like a moat sometimes. Filled with tears, bridge burned, and castle doors boarded shut. They say to let people in, but sometimes you’re on the outside yourself. You’re the only one who can swim across. It’s not like ruining your shoesSo you can’t run anymoreOr even ruining

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Leave Me Wanting More

Total Read Time: 4 Minutes What if you could control your desires and dangle them out in front of you, like a cartoon of someone chasing a hotdog 🌭 tied out in front of them on a fishing rod 🎣. What could you get yourself to do? I know desire by her absence As to say

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Latest Thoughts: A Theory on Alcoholism and Self Harm

Total Read Time: 4 Minutes I like how recording artists release their work. The music of their heart and soul is poured out daily until they let go of a compilation. It is… released. Released by a few bad shifts at workMindset is productivityResponsibility and discipline highlightedBy their absence Mindset as soil Ideas as seeds.

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Follow Your Trauma to Find Your Dream Job

Total read time: 9 Minutes I can’t stop thinking about wrong jobs. Lately, with COVID-19 on everyone’s radar, job security is more important than ever. I’m so sorry for everyone in hardship right now. I pray you have your health. I hope for the best support to find you. I wish they would have the

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Moons & Moods: My Equilibrium Theory

Total Read Time: 7 Minutes Over the past 3 days I have had the worst mood swings in months. The more people I talk to between work and home, the more I find consistencies in their emotional irregularities. Oxymoron, (consistent irregularities) I know, but mine were more than just environmentally related. I had to go

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I’m Writing about My Relationship with Alcohol

Total Read Time: 8 Minutes This post is about trauma. About Numbing myself. This is about choosing to give myself life instead of taking it away. I know it’s hard to read. Believe me, it’s harder to write. Disclaimer: I am not a doctor. I do not advise anyone on changes to their health. Please

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Self Acceptance vs. Complacency

Total Read Time: 5 Minutes I recently heard Tim Ferris’s interview of Brene Brown (Episode #409 – The Tim Ferriss Show) where they discussed relationships. As with most of his podcasts, Tim discussed ways of self betterment. He and Brene reach a topic that I in particular can relate and empathize with: the topic of

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Why do some people Never Break Up?

Total Read Time: 5 Minutes What a lovely palindrome of a day (02 02 20 20). I was informed it was also our 33rd day of the year, with 333 days left. Allow me to geek out over numbers, moon patterns… moving onward! People are so caught up in finding someone to be with. Maybe

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